On The Other Side of Darkness

Whew!  What a crazy couple of weeks.  I am very excited to say that I am finally feeling like my feet are finding some solid ground.  B and I have been overwhelmed with putting the finishing touches on our house plans and they are FINALLY done!  We will probably be breaking ground the end of October so at least I can put the house thing on the back burner for a little while.

The wedding invitations have been ordered.  Guess there is no backing out now.  (Just kidding!)  Really all that is left is decorating stuff and small details.  I am feeling much more on top of things and relaxed.  I’m just hoping I can keep that relaxed feeling all through the rest of the process.

We have reached the “craft season” in my neck of the woods.  This weekend I will be attending a craft fair with my mom and sister and next weekend my aunt, mom, and I will be traveling to another.  Fall is my favorite season.  I am already planning trips to the orchard and the pumpkin patch in the very near future.  Now if only the temperature would drop a little to make it feel like fall.  It is still fairly warm here and I am more than ready for jacket weather.

B and I coached our first soccer game of the season last Saturday.  We lost 4-1 but we had a great time doing it.  Our kids played their hearts out and I was incredibly proud of them.  I still don’t really enjoy soccer but I love our team. 

My health has been slowly but steadily deteriorating.  When I went off hormone therapy for my endometriosis it was understood this would happen.  The question was how fast it would happen.  Right now it seems it is a slow process which is good.  I am doing my best to take care of myself and keep the decline at a slow pace.  There are medical options but the goal is to get my body back into a normal cycle before adding anymore medications in the mix.  Thank you for all of the well wishes.  Overall my spirits are much better.

There has been a new fuzzy addition to my family in the last week.  Stay tuned for stories later this week.

WR

Little tidbits of updates

• Life and Times

We have registered for wedding gifts.  The bridesmaid dresses, mother of the bride dress, and my dress have been ordered.  This weekend I am ordering invitations.  This wedding thing is starting to loom over my head.  However I’m not feeling overwhelmed about it anymore.  Now if I could start feeling excited about it I would have it made.

• Financial

The house plans are drawn and finalized.  Now the constructions plans will be drawn up and hopefully we will break ground in 3 weeks.  I have finally gotten organized for the house planning process and that is really helping me feel less overwhelmed in this area.  B and I finally agreed on the house plans and now we will pick out carpet, flooring, brick color, etc.  We will just have to wait and see how all that goes.

• Health

I have been on a rollercoaster lately.  I fine for a couple of days and then laid up for three.  I am going to try some new herbal things in the next couple weeks and I will let you all know how that goes.  Right now my primary focus is to get my pain under control. 

• Entertainment

I’m putting this under entertainment because although it is not funny it is incredible dramatic.  C’s mom is going crazy…literally.  She has started calling B about once a week demanding more child support, or help with bills and then calls back two days later like she never called the first time.  She had B so upset on Friday night he was sweating and we haven’t heard from her since.  With all that’s going on in our lives we really can’t afford to go to court over C, but if it becomes necessary we will.  We were both really hoping that she would just get tired of him and send him back to us. 

Obituaries

• Sunday marked 6yrs since my dad died.  Surprisingly I was fine all day on Sunday.  Monday was the day I was sad.  Last night my brother was making a face just like Dad used to.  We were both laughing but ended up sitting in silence and crying later.  It was so long ago but sometimes it seems so close all over again.

Thanks for sticking with me while I am so inconsistent. *I actually tired loading some new pictures today and MSN kept kicking me off.  I will try again later this week.

WR

My spirits are definitely rising from last week.  This week my mom, three bridesmaids, and I headed off to the bridal shop.  We found everyone’s dresses including mine and had such a great time together.  It is great to have bridesmaids who like each other and have good relationships with my mom too.  They really helped me focus on enjoying this planning process and not stressing out so much. 

We are finalizing blue prints on the house next Wednesday.  I am trying not to think about the paint, cabinet, flooring, etc. choices that are to come.  If I look at it just one day at a time it is much easier. 

I have a follow up appointment with the doctor in 2 weeks.  After taking my blood pressure routinely I have found that it is consistently too low.  (Sound familiar Nicole?)  Anyway, so that with the iron issues has been making me SO tired.  I’m sure my brother and B think I am totally nuts since I have been in bed by 9pm every night for 2 weeks now.

My weight loss is at a stalling point.  I’m sure that being exhausted all the time is not helping either.  I still have been eating less and watching my calories but not at strictly as I should be.  Hey, at least I’m honest.  Right?

C stayed at his mom’s for this school year.  We are still waiting to see if she’ll get tired of him and send him home.  B and I are really missing him already.  However, I think it really is a blessing in disguise because I don’t think we could plan a wedding and build a house with the stress of him being here.  B and I are both hoping that he will come back next semester to live with us.

Well, I guess that’s all for now.  I’m going to get some pictures up next week for all of you.  Have a great holiday weekend!

*P.S.  After I got ready to post this entry there was an article on the MSN home page that was titled:  “Heavy Issues:  Is too much stress making you fat.”  I laughed out loud!

WR

I’m alive.  Just really overwhelmed.  I have been fighting with medicine changes, doses, etc. I think we may have gotten all that figured out.  Now we are trying to figure out why I am so tired all the time.  Doctors, doctors, and more doctors.

B and I have been given the great opportunity to build a house.  Only problem is we have to start building now.  So I’m planning a wedding and building a house.  I will admit to my blogging friends that I completely overwhelmed right now.  It doesn’t help that B and I have completely different ideas about things for the house and it seems to be a constant issue.  (Sigh)

I know that all too soon this will all be past but right now I feel like I am living in constant business and I just want a break from it all.  So you can see why I haven’t been blogging much or visiting for that matter. It seems every spare moment online I’m looking at things for the house, or things for the wedding.  My goal is going to be to blog once a week.  I think that at least writing here that often may help keep me sane.

Thank you for your patience with me and I although I may not comment I will be stopping by.  I miss all of you!

WR